For reference I have a few plates, slept with at least 50+ girls while having this main girl around (let’s call her H).

H fully loves me and does everything for me. Gets my clothes ready for work, cooks and cleans every single day without me even asking. Orders expensive food takeaways etc.

Spent around 2 years with her as pretty much an open relationship, I’m fucking other girls but something doesn’t feel right. I feel like a caged lion not being alpha at my full potential.

I really like this girl and enjoy my time with her but I’ve started thinking that maybe I don’t really enjoy my time with her, I just enjoy chilling every night smoking weed with her and it’s honestly turning me into a loser. I believe that if I was fully single all this time I would be in such a better position in life right now.

She’s spent thousands on me too mostly on expensive food takeaways every single night which ruin my diet, I have no self control in trying to cut when someone’s buying me nice food every night so I overeat, not her fault but something that happens due to having her around.

It seems like such a great girl to throwaway, one who’s been in my life longer than every other girl but I just feel like it’s what’s best for me. Has anyone went through similar? All advice greatly appreciated