What happened:

so long story short, 6 months going back and forth and I just had my first real rejection at 21. I called her, she cancelled the call, she usually calls back but she didnt, we had a test at campus and we usually meet after tests so I texted her "hey after the test lets meet at the usual spot" she replies with a double text "im not going to the test, im not even in campus today" I reply with a double text with "oh so you bailing already?" and "btw this weekend is X at Y, im going you want to join?" and after 1 hour she gives me the infamous "Seen" and post a IG story (she rarely rarely does) and has heart emogis all over it and chill images, its kinda hard to portrait in words but it screamed "haha look at me, I have the power" and I just wanted to post stuff and play in her frame, but then I remembered stuff I read here and just went like "lol" to myself and going to act like it wasnt a big deal.

How im feeling:

And I feel weird. One side of me is like "i'll show you what you missed" the other is "you arent enough" the other is "who gives a fuck" and other is "lets play basketball", I just feel weird. I kinda feel good because I made progress, instead of being in the middle ground I finally polarized.

I just wanted to share this, TRP changed my life so much for the better and I finally did something. I met this girl by approaching, and finally went far enough to get a rejection, it wasnt that big of a deal but for me its a step in the right direction. I still have a lot to go but yeah, its a way for me to start learning rejection isnt a big deal. It really isnt. Big thing, next one. I was already getting oneitis for this chick if not already deep into it, and I dont yet have the right mindset I want, but its a step.