22 year old male, i've been bullied in high school and serioiusly socially isolated before going into university. I only have few friends and i see them twice a year due to them being 100 miles apart from me.

I give way, way, way too many fucks about what people think of me and generally meeting new people of the fear of rejection. Its so frighteting that i avoid it like im about to die. Im worried they may not like me, im constantly worried about what im going to say, what they are going to say, im worried that i wont be able to get the conversation going, im worried on how to move in for the kiss, literally every step of the way.

I am aware that people here will tag me as huge pussy, faggot or whatever, but i seriously need help.