Currently Reading “the rationale male” and about half way through. I realize when I first started trp I didn’t see all my flaws but now I can’t believe I relate to this so much.

Reading the book sometimes makes me mad in the moment. But overall it’s worth it and helps after that frustration passes. Does the book get better as you read more?

Mental health wise and social skills/ social proof I’m at a solid level of 2/10. Looks wise I’m a guaranteed 7, maybe 8 when I try. I know some people don’t break out of this and I can’t help myself to consider that. But what are your experiences breaking out of the anger/beta/afc phase?

I am seeing a therapist which is helping me a bit at a broader level. But realistically she’s going to teach me how to be happy on my own, not how to go out there and kill it at parties or with women. I’m not discrediting her work, she’s great, but I think I need something more?

I gym often, eat healthy, have a decent summer job, read, do good in college. But what else am I missing ?

I’m still a bitch boy who’s suicidal lol not that I’d ever do it but I don’t want to be in a position that makes me think about it to begin with.