Im in monk mode pretty much r now as im improving but still invisible to womankind

Im getting a VERY strong pull since i came back to my home country to re add my longtime crush on social media and ask to meet and catch up (it ended TERRIBLY my last interaction a year or so ago was bending over backwards and texting her that i was sorry for teasing her)

I understand the solution is to MEET other girls and game them however i am not attractive enough to pick up a single plate yet. (Still got a small belly and my assertiveness is in its infancy stage)

So my life is going good its just whenever i go do something else or whatnot the breaks inbetween will have these feelings creeping back.

How did you guys banish this feeling once and for all?