I posted about a plate crossing a boundary (rescheduled a date and added an old male friend to a social event without me), it blew up to the front page and she read my my throwaway account clinically reduce her (f25) non-LTR qualities and actions and my decision to end the relationship immediately.

Upon reflection, throughout the relationship, I was distant, emotionally negligent and held her to a high standard that she could never achieve. She was despondent at times because she knew that she simply wasn't my forever person.

She was constantly trying to prove her worth to me, taking me out, treating me as her world, and sexually being very submissive. She assumed we would be a LTR and after trying to and failing to negotiate down I decided to find my exit gracefully.

I did so but her finding the previous post, where I deconstruct her and her orbiters, and decide to end it, the cognitive dissonance of her seeing her monkey branching etc has upset her.

We have mutual friends and the fallout has burnt bridges within my social and professional network. People knew vaguely I dated around and would pry for details to see viciously what it was like. Knowing that I treated someone they know, a daughter figure has reflected poorly on me.

Do I go full beta and write her a letter to apologise to save face?

My heart says I genuinely feel I treated her poorly and feel she deserved better than being a plate.

My head says it is wiser to power through it and continue no contact, but find some way to mediate a close like a short Mistakes were made nonpology.