I naturally, and heavily, display dark triad traits, as confirmed by my own research and speaking to a counselor. As far as I've known, I've always had a massive ego (narcissism), twisted every situation to my benefit, even making others thinking it was for their benefit even though it benefited me more (Machiavellian), and an extreme lack of empathy or care for others (Psychopathy). I have been working out since before I discovered TRP, and am physically attractive. Discovering TRP mostly confirmed many things I have been taught since I grew up with pretty successful, tough, and respectable male figures in my life.

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Right now, my main struggle is being in LTRs. I have no issues pulling women for casual dating or hook ups, but I would ideally like to start a family some day and have a son. Unfortunately, I am always the asshole in the relationship. In fact, I think I would also struggle to be a father as I would probably be an asshole to my son. I've tried to learn "BP traits" by watching romantic movies, etc, and I almost throw up in my mouth and cringe at the slightest romantic gesture (bag carrying, gift showering, etc). I understand some degree of Blue pill is required for an LTR to be successful. I'm not sure how best to learn these kinds of things.