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 Good evening asktrp. I just recently stumbled upon this sub and have been skimming the sidebar. I'm familiar with TRP views and some of the ideologies that get promoted. I share liberal and conservative views.

  Up until a couple months ago I have been what one would stereotypically call a beta. I'm tired of being used and manipulated, never standing up for myself, always going with what someone else wants, never expressing my opinion, never approaching women, being a complete push over etc. If I'm being honest, I'm still transitioning into the better version of myself.

  I am tired of getting bullied into submission and letting other people get their way for their benefit. I have sat and observed how people with worse hands than me get the pot. I realize now that it is my fault for folding everytime. I don't resent those that have found success, but I think it's time for me to get my share.

  A little about myself. I am male, 21yrs, 6', 225lbs. I don't consider myself athletic, but lifted moderately for about 6 months which really gave me small, but noticeable results. Having said that I dropped the ball for another 7 months and returned to my fast food habits. I make mediocre money (40k+) imo. Still live with my parents.

  My short term goals are to #1 live on my own, lose weight (and keep it off) and go to school.

  Long term is own my own house and run a side busines.

  This situation has more red flags than the goddamn communist parade, but I want to see if I can't manipulate it into my favor.

  Now about this (ex)oneitis. She is about 3 years older than me. I had previously worked in a position bellow her a few years ago, but still have connections at that establishment. I had expressed my interest in her, but was rejected. Her n count is considerably higher than mine by a factor of 10x. She is an illegal immigrant and has a child. Like a lot of not lost women, she is easily swayed by money, designed clothes, social media rep etc.

 I'll give you a second to finish your face palm and compose yourself so you can watch me continue fuck myself over..

 Ok, so why has she expressed her interest in me? You guessed it. Green card. My money also played a part in it. She doesn't know how much I make exactly, but it's definitely more than what she makes.

 "Why in the ever loving fuck would you be interested in this?" Good question. While I have no feelings for her there's something about taking what you've been denied that gets my blood going. Having said that, I am definitely concerned with the child involved. It's really the only obstacle I haven't thought through.

  Let me know what you think, I'm interested in seeing what you guys have to say.