I always worried about getting a girlfriend and sex. I was overweight my whole life. I lost around 80 pounds and put on muscle. I used prolonged fasting(autophagy) to not have loose skin and it worked. I liked my look. Girls came up to me to talk. I was a new man. I tried getting with girls and the whole time my heart beat and my dick shrink. Even when I’m focused on the girl it happens subconsciously. I didn’t realize till one girl goes “are you nervous” and I was like “ no why?” And she said my heart was beating rapidly. When I felt my pulse I realized she was right. Since then my mind races. I’ve fallen into depression. Gained 150 pounds. My body is disgusting. I have chronic extreme hunger. Even when I’m full and bloated my mind says “eat eat eat” and my stomach rumbles. It doesn’t make sense. Alone my dick is big. With girls it’s shriveled soft and doesn’t get hard. I’m losing the battle against my mind. My anxiety is unreal. If someone disagrees with me my heart starts beating and my adrenaline sky rockets. I don’t understand what’s wrong with my mind.