Let’s suppose that you have goals. Every day you’re looking forward to tackle with them because they will bring better version of you, you’ll become stronger, more valuable. For me it’s reverse. I wouldn’t say it’s something that i don’t want to do but it’s bigger hustle then i can mentaly and physicaly sustain, it’s hard and it’s never getting easier to do so nor i’m getting stronger and progressing with it that it will make me stick to it. I’m dropping goals or not finishing them because they are not ‘working me’, there’s no fire under my butt. It’s dreadful, ‘another day of plain hustle’ and nothing more. Instead of getting better at it by day, every single day it’s like getting from below zero, and that’s that, like that movie ‘groundhog day’.

Why is it like that for me? Is this a sign of mental problem? Why anything that i read or listen to just doesn’t phase me anymore. People come here to change their lives and in my current situation being here and listening to JBP, or reading a book, all it feels like watching TV or reading newspaper, plain, man. No amount of writting notes and reminders for myself are doing anything for me. I can’t wake myself up and i’m scared of how time will pass because if it keeps like this, i don’t know where i would end.

Is the answer to force myself? because i’m doing it already and going nowhere