I’m a year out of the LTR that re-redpilled me. I generally have around 7-10 quality women in my roster, and they usually cycle out when it’s apparent marriage isn’t on the table. Even though I’m on a date with a different woman like every day and I’m turning down like 3 dates a night, I feel incredibly lonely and I fulfilled.

My motivation for all my career ambitions was always to “find a good woman and start a family.” Now that I know that’s not on the menu, I’m depressed and I feel empty and have no motivation to do anything but sleep or go to the gym.

My Male friends are all either happily married and most with children, cucked in some weird ENM/Poly thing, or deep in oneitis. I don’t have many single Male friends and the ones who are I can’t really connect with.

I’m trying to change careers to move to Cali but I’ve never finished any level of school (not even primary school) and I’ve never had a job on the books, I have all local private clients for my consulting business. Relocation is the only remaining motivator in my life.

It’s kind of hard for me to become connected to the women who come into my life just to watch them leave when they discover they can’t get what they want from me in the way they want it. And I am over the whole hookup thing, I toured in rock bands through my 20s and I’ve always had a banquet of available HB7+ mostly sane women in my life who add value, but I know better than to try and build with any of them.

I want to have the whole wife and kids and a picket fence scenario I grew up with but I am aware it’s no longer an option for a man in the US, and so I don’t know what to think, feel, or do.

Have any of you ever felt this way, or been in this situation? Women come in, are amazing, keep shouting NAWALT until they peel off to feed some poor AFC blue pills to get what they’re looking for. I feel like an emotional hotel. I’m not even fucking chicks anymore I’m going for affection because it’s what I want, but of course it’s fleeting.

I miss having business partners and big projects I was working on but all of the other quality people I was connected to have moved to big cities and I’m stuck in a bad situation in a suburb with lots of girls who wear sports jerseys, drink light beers, ride quads, and talk about how they’re “one of the boys”, or the “I’m successful you be too” max hypergamous types. I’m an artist and a private consultant who basically doesn’t exist on paper so this kind of woman usually nexts me when I don’t have an impressive business card (but of course after she gets the D, sigh).

If any of you have been in this situation and got out, what did you do?