Girl is 39 so I assume CC rider. We meet for coffee, she’s got a great personality and within 5 mins talks about how she has 2 sides “her wild” side and “grandma” side. Convo is going fine for about 20 mins then I say let’s go for a walk. We find an isolated spot in nature. 10 mins later I go for kiss and she says she doesn’t on the first date. I’m surprisingly unphased and we talk for about another 10 mins and I go for it again. Great make out and she says “ that was actually really nice.” We make out 2 more times and I’m feeling her up while doing so. At the end of the 3rd make out she says she should get going (she had to be somewhere and told me at the beginning of the date and the clock matched when she needed to go.) we kiss at her car.

I make the mistake of texting 10 mins after “it was fun hanging we should get together again.” 3 hours later she un matches me on bumble.

I got horrible guilt and shame going on as if I crossed the line. Idk, with all the bs sexual assault charges that happen my mind has been in full freak out mode like she’s going to file for it against me. Because technically she said “I’m not ready for that; I don’t kiss on the first date” which I know is bull shit. In hindsight I wish I would have just ended the date right there and not played her games, but I’ve been trying to get over an ex so I pushed a little more and now I feel rapey. Whats going on with this?