I think I've found the thing that has stopped me from becoming red pill and that is abundance. Now this relates not just women but everything. And its basis lies in my past.

Here a few examples

  • I used to have to sleep on the floor (really poor) so because of that I am really grateful for the bed I have now.
  • I used to have to survive on two ramen noodles a day. Now I'm grateful for everyone meal I have.
  • I've had so many of my friends betray me, I grew up with physically abusive father and emotionally abusive mother. I was also bullied at school. So I cherish kindness from others as I know they don't have to be so.
  • Now on to women As you can probably also imagine. The only women I ever had were my right and left hands (not so much anymore) Just a few examples.

I have healed from all of this. So please understand I'm not throwing a pity party but trying to get you understand where I've come from.

I've healed from all this. And in doing so has made me really grateful of all the above things. So catching oneitis comes almost second nature to me...

I should note that now. I'm none of the above things. I earn good money. Work out 5 times a week. Eat well. Have girls show interest but it all comes back to me feeling maybe overly grateful to kindness that is sent my way.

How can I overcome my issues with abundance?