I fell for a girl a year back. She swept me off my feet when we first met. Over the months I became overly invested in her emotionally. As expected it was a disastrous ending. Now what happens is that this girl is charmed by my closest friend. I must mention that we're all classmates. It cuts deeps whenever i see them together.

Our class has planned a 10 day vacation to a hill-station before we graduate. This girl and my friend are going to share a room there. My heart churns by this mere thought. Almost all students will be going. There's a high chance that they'll be intimate there.

Over the months I've learned that she intentionally initiates conversations with me because it makes me awkward. It reminds me of the cringeworthy acts i committed to woo her. I'm like a puppet in her string so now i keep distance from her.

I know TRP looks down on such sappy behaviour. I've grown from who i was but i still feel bad.

What do I do? Should I go or withdraw?