I’m tired of life.

Sorry if this post is a mess, I have too many thoughts on my mind overlapping right now. I’m an 11th grader in Egypt. Nobody ever invites me to hangout. Almost the entire school knows me, and I consider myself “popular” but not liked. Nobody considers me a real friend. I have read tons of social skills and seduction books, yet I still see myself failing socially and romantically . I’m the guy even 10th and 9th graders think of as a weak person and bully and tease me, and I let them do it because I never stand up for myself. I am afraid of fights. Physically, I am sure that I can beat anyone up in my school, but the idea of being punished and getting into trouble is scaring me as that’s what I’ve been brought up to think of. I used to attract all the girls at school, yet I’ve never done anything sexual or anything close to romantic with them, despite them obviously liking me. The last time I went out with friends was 2 years ago. My social life is non existent. I don’t know what it’s like to have fun outside of school (except for playing football with friends that are outside of school weekly) I am tired of sucking at football. I train solo 3 times a week (been doing that for 2 weeks) and I still suck and get made fun of when I play with my friends. I am a way better player than I ever was a year ago, but I’m tired of being average at my favorite sport ever. I used to have an amazing physique that even strangers complimented me on, but I let myself go after a shoulder injury that destroyed my body and made me gain weight. Ever since the incident a year ago, I’ve never been the same. I’m tired of being unfunny and boring. I’m tired of nobody being interested in me, and having the entire grade divided into cliques. I’m tired of relapsing on NoFap because I’m too much of a loser to get an actual girl. I’m tired of attracting girls by being me only for them to lose attraction after sometime because I was too much of a pussy to escalate anything further. I’m tired of having my friends brag about how he smashed that one girl, while I’ve not done that in almost 3 years. I’m tired of being scared to standup for myself. Fuck, some parts of this post may sound like a humble brag, but I really don’t know whats the point of this post. Is it me asking for advice, or just venting? I don’t even know anymore. Help me. What would you do?