I will try to keep it as short as possible, I'm almost 20 years old and Virgin never had any sexual experience with a girl before( I've talked to 3-4 girls before but didn't work out). I have been focusing much on self improvement this year(I lift, eat good, did some muay Thai for a while and try to adapt new good habits like reading). I recently started reading and learning about rp(read the side bar) and I understand and agree on most of the things said. I am an average social guy and don't really have any problem talking with strangers and interacting with groups and things like that but i am at the same time a bit of introvert(I don't really like sharing much about my life). What made me start this post is this: I recently went on a trip to meet with two female friends, now one of them I have known for almost 3 years and got really close in the last few months and I'm really attracted to her, she is beautiful and has a really nice personality. But she never really was single the time Iv known her so I never really tried anything, but even though I'm attracted to her, sex isn't really the first thing I desire, I want to have a relationship doing all these cuddling and goofy shit for some reason. And it's not really about the girl that bothers me it's more of my own self, because I don't know why I'm interested in having a a relationship so much , I don't know why I want to be so invested in one girl only and why do I feel the need to be in a relationship?