I am writing here because I do not know where else to turn. I have been trying to implement more red pill strategies, but my marriage is going downhill. Basically, I have been addicted to Adderall for many years (not anymore). The problem is that when the comedown happened I did not hold frame and talked very anxious. My wife would get mad at the smallest shit because the drug prevented me from working in our marriage too. In a couple of fights I fell into amphetamine induced psychosis and when she yelled and made threats I pushed her. This came to an end when I had to be admitted to a mental health center. I got off the drug but she has been asking me for months to say something would make her feel better about what happened. I tried everything: apologies, reason. Nothing worked. Now she is starting to ask for a divorce because she thinks I won't say anything to make her feel better. I need help on figuring out what that means before it's too late.