It just occurred to me that I am the man-equivalent of a PickMeCoolGirl

But I feel like that's awesome?

Early in my development, when i was old enough to be distinct from other kids and could be responsible for my younger brothers, I got the talks about like emergencies and safety and threats, and I learned about how men have to be between the threat and the vulnerable, so in my case, my lil brothers, but when I was older, the women too. My dad told me all about sperm and the whole expendable male thing/female fertility, so early, early on in my life I was already modelling the world as a battleground among otherwise worthless men

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probably this underpinned my whole interest later in different history, prehistory, myths, the Romantic era philosophy, whatever, but i always understood nature as like female-centric, with this vestigual, utilitarian little incidental male offshoot that exists to protect and maintain and perpetuate whatever trajectory the females are on.

So is this like, a desirable alliance state of being, or am I all mixed up? Whatever issues you gentlemen might have with my politics or my rhetoric or my attitude about this or that, I am like deeply steeped in the notion of the sanctity of each female, and believe that men only have value inasmuch as they are useful as a congregation around that. I basically developed throughout my entire life with this as a core assumption of reality, and it has directly impacted my sexuality, my work ethic, how i spend my time, how I treat/craft my space- I apply female standards when i consider my appearance and use a female lens on myself like instinctively.

Having realized this only yesterday in texting with a friend, I have not decided if it is a good or a bad thing yet.

edit: jeez people I said, "I always understood nature as like female-centric," to give you an idea of what is at the center of many different elements of my personality, in bolstering the claim of my OP. It's not at all relevant in some kind of scientific argument here, I'm talking about my psyche, and that of coolgirls, and what being a coolguy might look like, and mulling over the implications of all of that, comeon.