I am dumb af socially and even though I am extroverted I dont have any friends. I am desperate for friends and this desperation results in me fucking up alot. I dont have much respect in high school. For some weird reason I am able to make fun of / am ease with people who dont make fun of me and are respectful to me but people who do I act completely beta infront of them and completely lose my frame.

I want to build rapport with my peers and I want toď find a group of friends. Not having a group of friends results me in being desperate and people pleasing to fit in and since I dont have a group of friends and not high smv I break frame when people banter with me, because ik those guys have friends and a certain social standing. Is this my thinking or is this for real?

I dont want to fit in with less interesting and low smv people but I find that even those guys have groups while I am a fucking loner even tho I pretend to have a good social life and am very chill upfront and am far better socially than those guys. Is this because I have tried to talk to far more people than I should? Should I stick with a particular group?