I went on a 2nd date with an exchange student. We went to eat pizza, then she got me to her crib. We made out and she sucked my dick and I ate her out. She told me no sex and I didn't have a rubber on me anyway. I think she was serious (meaning: it wasn't a shit-test) and that she wanted to hamster herself into thinking she wasn't a slut by being able to say "It was only head!".

Afterwards, we cuddled for 5 hours (seriously - i realize this was a mistake though now) and she kept kissing me, looking me into the eyes, telling me how handsome i am, telling me not to leave. I eventually did have to leave for reasons unrelated and it wasn't a big issue.

This happened last Saturday. Later that night on the phone, she texted me she wants to go to a museum with me when she comes back from vacation. I said alright let's do it. Then I haven't written her in like 3 days because she went on vacation on Sunday and I had other shit to do.

Today I saw her WhatsApp status: "I am going to delete this app for a while. If you want to contact me, please send me a message". I low-key felt like she's lying just so she can block/ghost my ass.

Anyway, I wrote her: "Hey. I just saw your status. Do you want to stay in contact?"

The text delivered, but she neither read nor replied. Plus her status about deleting WhatsApp is now gone (which either means she deleted the status or deleted me from her contacts). I can still see her picture though so she didn't block me.

Anyway: I think she is ghosting me. Is there any hail-mary-attempt to try and salvage this? I thought about just asking her out after New Year. If she seriously deleted her WhatsApp though, I would have to call or send a SMS (and she's in Italy with her mom on New Year's so I don't know if she would pick shit up).

I need some of you elders to take some sense into me. I shouldn't be feeling like my entire ego got rejected but somehow I do, I actually felt shitty about this today. How the fuck do I deal with this? I feel like an idiot because I don't know what the fuck went wrong or what the fuck to do. This shit is embarrassing. A random ho shouldn't have that much power over my feelings. That cuddling shit caught me off-guard though, she was super intimate to me which might have fired off the hormones in my body.