My ex (oneites) left me 4 months ago and I don’t think I’ll ever get over this. She was a 7/10 who was head over heels for me to the point where I almost made her get my name tattooed on her body. One night I made an impulsive decision by inviting her over to a party that I was co-hosting with my friend who was the actual host. I knew nobody there other then the host and I tried to invite some friends over but they all bailed on me. She ends up coming over and we end up smoking up and having a good time until all of a sudden she has an anxiety attack and doesn’t feel good so she told me she wanted to leave. (This is where I overthink the situation and tell myself in my head that she realized that I exposed myself knowing that I have no social status so now she’s finding an excuse to leave.) I ended up peer pressuring her to smoke more and treated her like shit because I thought it was over thinking that she wasn’t having a good time and it was just an excuse to leave because I’m a fucking loser in her eyes now. She ends up breaking up with me the next day and that’s when I fucked things up even more by trying to save the relationship. I ended losing my mind one day and I bought her an expensive gift along with getting her name and lips tattooed on my body which caused her to push me away even more. I should’ve just went no contact after that but now the damage is done and it’s fucking killing me every single day. It also hadn’t even been a month since she left me and she was already hanging out with her “guy friends” who she’s now fucking on a daily basis. I had two other bitches who were down to hook up with me post breakup but I turned them both down because I couldn’t get over her. I’ve ruined myself and I need serious help..this shit has fucked me up so bad.