I lift 5 days a week and jerk of less and try to socialize when I go out but I fuck up alot, and even though I think alot and read/watch slot of shit on how to be my best version outside I fuck up alot and end up saying stupid shit which makes it easy for others to pick on me and I have no defense since it was me who said stupid stuff. I have tried jerking off lesser/lifting 5 days a week and being more aware but still I end up saying stupid shit which makes me a coward infront of others.

Idk if it's the desperation of making friend or the need to fit in but even though I try to get rid of those feelings I still end up fucking up.