Throwaway since shes active on reddit. So this one is a bit unorthodox but hear me out. A year ago I met this girl, she's a muslim, pretty conservative and a traditional "sweetheart" i.e bakes cookies and brings them to work, always chirpy and nice. I kept thinking AWALT, but this girl struck me as peculiar. She was 21, she had a degree and was... smart and sophisticated in a sense and humble. I started getting really interested in her, (i'm from a muslim family but I'm not really practicing). She's basically a pretty good example of "what your mom wanted you to marry": a cute girl with a headscarf who cooks and respects everyone. She also has an ass I was really keen to see, the whole mystery was agonizing. On our first date she was maybe the most entertaining company I've had in a while, the girls I go out with are a drag until it comes to the i-dont-usually-do-this doggy fuck. But she wouldn't budge. She didn't want to come over, she thanked me for the night and had paid for the dinner in advance with a credit card since "she's the one who invited me to dinner and it would be inappropriate otherwise", this stuck with me for a bit. Fast forward a year later, I stopped spinning other plates, completely. I go over to her place after work, meal ready, coffee brewed, fucking neck massage waiting for me. I had taken this girl's virginity, something that was an unreal experience for me and for her, she was shocked for quite some time.

I never completely trust a woman. I analyze her, I reprimand myself for putting her on a pedestal. She is, however, my best bet for a LTR or marriage. The idea of which doesn't seem so horrible to me now. As a woman who's had male authority pretty much engraved in her brain for a lifetime, she's a bit too good to be true. I honestly don't know what the fuck I'm on about, I just need to be reality checked out of faggotery and get my head out of my ass. Any help?