We had some sort of 'the talk' last sunday where she told me that she doesn't want to see anyone except me, while she's fine if i'm seeing someone on the side(i was dumb and tried a month ago some sort of relationship talk where i mentioned how im seeing other girls while i don't)

So basically she looks me as her BFF, she don't want to spend any time with her guy friends because true to the heart she doesn't have any and want only with me. She said how she's speaking of me to her friends as her 'sympathy'(sort of her crush)

She doesn't know if she wants to be with me in LTR because so far every ended where she got bored and just drag it all the way until someone breaks and by that point she doesn't want me to bore her. Her girlfriends are telling her how we're basically dating and together but this one can't make up her mind

I wouldn't even write this shit if i haven't caught feelings long time ago

So last night i interupted her in our conversation and asked why she still has photos of her ex on ig, and why she follows him.

' its memories, im not on bad term with any of my ex, we just dont have contact anymore'

' if it matters to you i will delete them'

' he also has a new GF'

Then we had sex, good talk cuddling and shit, texting now but i'm just wondering who am i in all of this shit? Backup, filler until someone else comes, substitute for her ex?

We also should take some photos together last night but we didn't