Don't know how to say this, but here it goes,

I felt like I had lost something. I felt like I had lost something between now and high school. Don't know how to describe it, but a piece of me was missing. I don't know if it has fully returned to me. But, all those years of placating to others, teachers, professors, classmates, women, friends, felt as though I was giving something up to them, every time, just to win their favor.

I think I know what I lost, I think it was my sense of freedom. Even though this may not last and it will be up to me to maintain my frame. I hope it does last. I hope the best for you guys. And, I'd rather know the harshness of life than the warmth of an illusion.

Just to give a shoutout to the posters who helped me get there;

Omlala, GLO, VasiliyZaitzev, Clint_Redwood, Neoreactionsafe, Whisper and Archwinger.

You guys are the shit, keep pimpin'