I lift, I play 2 sports pretty seriously, I am in good shape, I have a good job, a good family, good friends and until recently, a successful LTR.

I'm still in a LTR but due to needing advice I stumbled here.

I have since read NMMNG and TRM.

The problem is, I really like the idea of a GF and after thinking about it more, I think it's the love and affection that I really like. My parents did well but my dad was a classic beta and my mom very masculine. My mom never gave me any love and affection and my dad was always passive. I think this is probably why I am content on being alone and focusing on my interests/crafts. However, I'm in my 5th year of an LTR and have realised that although I never sought external validation in the past, the abundance I was receiving from my GF was very... comforting?

Many of the things TRP talks about, in particular, the personal development I fully agree with. I have slept around in the past and it never gave me any real satisfaction (other then the moment of course). I need something deeper and more meaningful, something more stable (an LTR).

I wanted to ask here if this is a problem because I suppose this means I am not 100% happy with myself. But i can't reason why as mentioned above, my whole life is going good. Because I can't figure it out I can't really fix it. This problem leads me to naturally cling to LTRs more than I should but again, I know i'm attractive and had success in the past before I got in to my LTR and it never gave me any real fulfilment.

I need sex but that alone is pretty meaningless to me; when I span plates and had lots of sex in the past, I felt pretty empty.

Does anyone have any advice on how I can change this? Any analysis will be useful