TLDR: 2 plates fall at the same time, the only thing that changed was my muscle mass (bf remained at 12-14%). The LTR-plate done fucked up one too many times, now I’m considering helping her chickens find their way back to the roost.

I re-plated an LTR after 8 month breakup. Told her I was seeing other girls, and she couldn’t expect monogamy ever again. She was quite ok with it. Well, I got distracted by other pursuits and lost 10lbs of muscle, and that’s when the trouble started. Were it not for this one simple fact, I wouldn’t be writing any of this. So both of my plates, at the same time started acting sparse, and the sex started to seem more obligatory than desired. It was quite convincing to see just how obviously their behavior changed SEPARATELY AND AT THE SAME TIME. The non-LTR plate I didn’t really care, she was just temporary easy pussy anyways, and I can definitely do better.

The LTR plate (who I can also do better, she’s nearing the wall, but I had some lingering feelings when I re-plated her), I’ve been off/on with for 8 years now. The most recent on-phase lasted 5 months, then: I helped her find a house, and spent a Saturday moving all of her shit. I have a flatbed and had her driving behind me specifically to prevent any loss. Well, she forgot about some papers and $400 in a drawer (I had told her to have her shit packed up, that it was going to be a grab and go ordeal). While driving about 25mph on a neighborhood road, the papers fly out and she sees it but ignores it. 20-30secs later we turn onto a feeder road, and then the cash came out. She sees it, but at no point does she stop to get the $$, call me, or pull me over. Dumb bitch. While I haven’t bothered to get her to admit it directly, I have no doubt that her hampster has done some fantastic acrobatics to turn the blame around. She previously had acknowledged she owed me dinner and pussy for helping her, but has not initiated contact once since then 4 weeks ago. I called her the next Friday and came over to fuck, which we did but was some of the worst sex I’ve had in years – not that she was ever that good in bed anyhow. She told me she had fucked another guy that week (instead of calling me, she gave her pussy to someone else as an obvious form of revenge). All this comes on top of other signs and symptoms of being a disrespectful bitch, but I won’t elaborate, as this was the most flagrant example.

Now, the ONLY times she has ever shown this level of disrespect is when I dropped below 165lbs (12-14% bf, 5’11”). And I have found it interesting that every time I pass this threshold, it’s painfully obvious the difference in respect and deference I get from people in general.

And all of this coming from a bitch who insisted for years that I was her soul mate. I was already aware that AWALT, but my lesson is now painfully obvious (as we all know here) that she doesn’t love the person that I am, she only loves what I can provide for her, and of course mostly, muscles and dick.

Lessons Learned

So I’ve gone through the anger phase all over again, realizing another level deeper just how fucked up seemingly all women are, and how you should NEVER believe it when they pretend to love you. Just take it to mean “I love/want/need what you are providing at the moment.” Not that y’all didn’t already know that.

Of course I got smart, spent a few weeks getting back the easy mass (back up to 167lbs again), and it’s pretty obvious the difference how PEOPLE, not just bitches respond to me. Started meeting wymyn again with decent success. The anger from this latest BS has 1) helped me to digest that pill some more and really internalize it, and 2) understanding bitches (and people in general) for how they really are has significantly helped with DGAF.

The sad part is realizing that pretty much no woman has the capacity to be the kind of lover or partner that most of us would like to have. But knowledge is power, and I’ll always take the hard truth over an easy lie.

All comments welcome. Stay tuned for part II, what I’m considering next. EDIT: nothing illegal or elaborate.

Edit: I been radio silence 4 weeks since then, I am lifting (duh), and approaching new women.