So I seemed to reach a point where I no longer worry about the ex, nor that other girl in my previous post whom I label as my "weakness". I have no anger or resentment towards them.

My ex wife was just a bad decision at that point in time. Regret that I got married and wasted 7 years of my life. I could probably talk at lengths about how I felt at the end of it. But it's okay cause I'm still alive and kicking.

My "weakness" didn't really do me wrong. A strange person with strange ways and helped me out a lot emotionally a few months after my divorce. As much as I'd like to think we're suited for each other, she was already married when we met. So nothing can ever come out of such a relationship. This one is a hard one for me to get over, cause it's more timing that's the problem than any wrongdoings. I now feel that the only thing I did wrong here was over investing in this friendship so it's just a matter of disinvesting myself (easier said than done). So kinda my fault for hoping in something that will never materialize.

Before I used to get angry at the things they did to me. Used to vent and complain and rage over all these things. Used to rage over awalt behavior. Now, I just see it as a set of actions that I am responsible for in my life. It's just something I learnt from, and now life is stacked with projects and things that I want to do. Even contributing to the sub is becoming harder because of the goals I set out to do.

Will I go back to the plantation? Maybe if the conditions are right (mgtow is kinda based on being single based on the unfair conditions or you just like being single). But right now, I'm totally okay with where I am right now. More contented, sometimes happy and sometimes sad/lonely. More importantly, does anybody else feel like this? Is it a normal emotion to go through?