The summer I was redpilled years ago. Despite rejections, public shamings( I was a fat black nice dude) I was adamant that this nice guy schtick was what was needed to be a good man. Despite real life evidence facing in me on a daily basis, the programming was too strong. I grew up on western television.

I can't exactly remember the nail in the coffin But I had endured a painful rejection(painful because I was actually just being mind fucked lol its quite funny now I can't understand why I was soo into a woman like that. Boggles my mind)with subsequent public shaming about my body which had dissemated my confidence and self worth at the time, this was a year before even touching any redpill material so I was well primed to take that pill. For me it was an antidote. It was a warm hug, the red pill was the father I needed. The brother I wanted. It really wasn't a pill it was the embrace of God, the healing of an open festering wound. I never once raged I fully accepted it with comfort because I always had known it. I just had been blind to it. But it was always there.

In one fell swope my mind was completely dissociated from the blue world. For me truth is truth and redpill was the truth and mgtow the embodiment of that truth. Lost all respect for the blue haired black Queen (fat Somalian with protruding teeth) I had endured rejection from. All feelings just evaporated. Now I thank the stars for the pain caused from being led on as a public joke. Removed myself from all black liberation movements that had no real focus on taking personal responsibility(just blaming the white man for all ills). I removed all politics from my life till I felt I could see things objectively(never can) and when I emerged into my political conscious, lo and behold I was a pro capitalist republican, UKIP made all the sense in the world to me. I have a never worn trump 2016 campaign t-shirt in pristine condition. I plan on wearing it publicly when I have achieved my goals and nolonger need to hold face for the blue world. I'M NORMAL WEIGHT. About to start gym. Mgtow saved me. I love all mgtows. There's a kid 17yo where I work I mentor. I live in the north of England where most of troubles which yiu see with the black family in the US is experienced by white working class folk here. I try and advise these young men to not go down the path of siring children out of wedlock. In some cases I've written down action plans, CVs and helped these young whities get on a path into college and 6th form. I normally don't necessarily instruct them but I ask questions to expose flawed thinking(or social programming). That way they arrive at their own conclusions and have their own reasons to get on the path and understand all the potential they hold. That seems to work well because they come back to me. I'm not your typical London black thug but I don't have a northern accent, i'm Easy to understand, speak concisely and because of my personality type I'm can connect social patterns really well and with years of redpill material under me I actively translation woman into English with no effort. We have what you call man deserts up north. Council housing areas devoid of adult men. I want to serve on the side as a point of reference for these men. Just maybe I'd have an impact. One kid I advised he shouldn't be working here at 17 with no qualifications and that long term there's more he can achieve than being here. He applied to college. I had to go look up colleges, look into subjects. Everything. But atleast his got a chance. His living with his gf in her mum's house so I don't really know how much influence I would've had.