An old high school classmate struck up a conversation with me, friendly chat about what we've each been up to, the latest media, the weather. I entertained this because I made the mistaken assumption that her talking to me was actual friendship. She starts dropping sexual jokes, little hints here and there. I ignore them. She becomes more direct, and I find an excuse to gently tell her I'm off the market. Still we continue talking, and her interest continues to intensify and increase in its directness and vulgarity. Finally I tell her there's just no chance of anything happening. And wouldn't you know it, I'm the asshole! I get insulted and blocked. I guess all I'm good for is my dick and my wallet.

The thing that gets me, and what compelled me to write this post, is just how deluded this girl is. I am the very model of an eligible bachelor. Fit, tall, handsome, young, talented, ambitious, and rich. She's an overweight, unhealthy, unemployed divorcee living in her mom's basement. What in the actual fuck makes her think she has a chance with me? Complete lack of perspective, that's what.

The degree to which she's unable to see her dating marketability is 0%, there's simply no other explanation. And it's not like this is some girl who's been handed everything, and therefore has no motivation to be introspective. I was handed nothing, and I looked within. I improved myself. I brought something to the table. What has she done? Nothing! In her mid-30s and still looking for a bailout, even though she never had anything going for her, and therefore no reasonable expectation of getting one.

The best part is, in my dating days, I was not above dating down. My most recent ex of 7 years was an overweight, slothful, negative, uninspired narcissist not unlike this girl. She hid some of her negative personality traits, and I looked past her appearance, and we made things work for a time. Thing is, if I was going to date down, you'd better believe I'm going to be the one who chooses. And I'd choose someone that I see something in, not some loser who decides to hunt me down and make me hers.

But those days are over for me. Dating beneath my level was a mistake, and just as dating was a mistake in its entirety. Girls on my level are just as clueless about their worth as this girl, only in their mind, they're worth WAY MORE than me. I literally can't exchange two words with them without them instantly thinking about how much better they are than me. They're completely delusional. I'm not even interested, but just introducing myself to them lets them tell themselves they could own me, and therefore I am the worst they could ever do from this point forward. Completely fucking delusional. I get a say in who I associate with, and getting to know someone is part of making that decision. It doesn't mean I want them!!!

I've just had it up to here with their asinine behavior. No amount of distance is sufficient for me, it seems. Anyway, sorry for the rant, I didn't know where else to say it..