Hey everyone. My question is as the title says. These past few years I've been feeling like life is kind of pointless. I feel like there is nothing for me to look forward to. I'm 25 now and I feel like I wasted my entire life wallowing in all of the bad circumstances I've been in. Things are starting to feel pretty pointless now since everything seems short-lived and full of shit. Especially people. I long to find others who are as accepting of others as I am and don't want to just follow the everyday rat race. But everyone seems shallow as shit. Not that I don't have shallow areas, after all, I am still human. I mean I want to be rich like the next guy but there has to be more to life than making money and fucking bitches isn't it?

Right now I want to be in a position to make as much money as possible while working solely for myself and creating. I am a programmer and want to get into selling music. Possibly doing something with drawing like creating webcomics. Or finding something that I would be proud of that no one else can take away. But I don't have any motivation for doing anything. I know this sounds ridiculous but for those of you who are living the life that you want or on your way to living that life, what did you do to motivate yourself and make it feel like its worth the struggle?