Pulling a night shift at my second job (work there for extra cash and it gives me something to do when I’m bored).

Have a lot of time to think cause it’s a slow night. Been in and out of the MGTOW concept for 3 years now, not committing but thinking I am only to go back to dating and relationships. Sure I avoided some relations and ghosted some women but I got hooked on two that really fucked me up, yep I left them eventually and I never lived with any of them under the same roof.

That last one still burns and is pretty fresh, she will contact me again and I’ll try to stay away, but I get so weak sometimes. It’s almost like I’m two persons, the logical me that know I’m better off without a relationship and the needy man child that craves for female attention. These two identities are taking turns at the steering wheel and I’m fucking tired of it.

The logical side of me is thankfully getting stronger, a lot cause I’ve been an active reader of this sub lately. I think I’m on the next step in my journey towards clarity.

How do guys stay true to yourself over time, how do you conquer over the urge, the thirst, the NAWALT?