Hi all, I'm writing this for anyone struggling with life and being mgtow. I'm facing my mid 30's broke , divorced, careerless, and no hope of any future. I'm tall , good looking and muscular. On the surface everything looks fine and I definitely attract a lot of ladies, I'm what a lot of red pillers would call a "chad". Once women figure out that I don't have money or a career , they predictably bounce out. All I could really offer them was dick, this got old and I began to feel like a degenerate womanizer after my divorce . Every sexual conquest began to take its toll on me and any ability to form a healthy relationship. I was only with my wife for most of my adult life and didn't like having multiple partners.

I'm the male equivalent of a pump and dump, so I decided to quit sex and focus on myself. Three years have passed and I haven't been able to get my life in order. I am somewhat educated but not enough to command a livable wage or even be able to afford a gf, being a mgtow was a default choice. Even if I had money, women would simply just use me for money and deem me a " good catch". Being with a modern woman is a lose lose scenario.

You can't beat hypergamy and a government that acts as a surrogate father figure while subjugating men and masculinity. While Mgtow maybe a good path for many men , it's not my first choice and more like a default path for me. I'm never going to get a gf or be in a relationship because it's an unwinable high risk situation. I still have natural urges and needs that I satisfy with porn.

I think being mgtow or its movement isn't natural in a sense. Instead I think mgtow is a natural reaction to a society that is degenerating and becoming over populated. We truly live in a dystopic world now. Gender roles are flipping , men are losing their masculinity, radical feminism is taking over. The left in America has become delusional, the irony is unreal and they don't see that they are the ones who are anti freedom fascists.

Yes I am free to work on myself, but the cards are really stacked against men. When I was married I was busy trying to make ends meet and provide for my family. It became a struggle and my ex wife started drinking. Eventually my marriage dissolved and I lost my family and even my sense of purpose.

Here I am , older and more irrelevant to the changing times. I still look young and in my twenties but usually people find me odd and look at me like a large child , wondering why I'm single and don't have a career. I grew up in a poor rural community and had no options around me.

I couldn't pick up a trade or educate myself. My life really sucks and I'm competing against automation , Mexicans , and more and more women entering the work place. My ability to get a decent job as suffered and it looks like things will only get worse. I can barley afford to take care of myself and basically have to work to starve. I really don't want advice , I had enough sense in life to try everything and anything I could. I can't control other people or force people to give me opportunities.

I see why most men off themselves in middle age. We can't really re-invent ourselves and it becomes harder to do anything. My depression is unbearable at times and my ability to take care of myself financially is non existant, the job market is horrendous. I just don't see the point of living anymore , I'm a burden on my family and can't seem to take care of myself.