Main Question: Feeling the void, any tips on what to do next? Basically, after internalizing MGTOW and seeing there isn't much to gain by interacting with women/people I've lost motivation to improve myself.

I guess overall the first year that I found 'The Red Pill' I was very motivated to better myself, in order to find meaningful friends and be treated better by people. I put The Red Pill in quotes because I think I was still Blue Pill but I at least wanted to make the strides in the right direction, don't get married, work out, stop being a nice guy, find hobbies to make myself interesting.

A year after that I gave MGTOW a read and then I became pretty angry and hateful.

I guess now I've become less angry and hateful, and now I just don't see much point. In reflection I see that most of my motivation came from women and other people, and now I've basically lost that motivation, I don't care that much what people think of me. I am having trouble eating, interacting, going to the gym, and going to work.

I've tried to find enjoyment out of working out, playing video games, being creative at work. Unfortunately none of it seems to work and I find myself feeling tired, even though I shouldn't be.