As this is a life story, it is impossible to keep short.

I grew up in a typical lower-middle class American household. My parents got married young, had me soon after and bought a house. I also have a younger sister. My dad worked a blue collar job 60-70 hours a week while my mother spent her days at home doing arts and crafts and gardening. That is, until I got home from school, when she would engage in her other favorite hobby- beating the ever living fuck out of me for any reason she could come up with. I'm not talking spanking or slapping for being a bad kid. She routinely closed-fist punched me. One time I smarted off at dinner, so she threw her fork at my face. I shielded my face by raising my arms and she had thrown the fork so hard that it stuck in my forearm. I forgot to pack my sister lunch one morning, so she kicked me down the stairs, breaking my arm. I was made to lie about how it happened. I got a bad grade on a test in school, so she threw the TV remote at me. I ducked and it stuck in the wall. She got even more angry and beat me ruthlessly until I was bloody and bruised. My father never stepped in, never spoke an ill word to my mother. I think that she more than likely was beating him too, when no one else was around. There's about 13 years of these memories, from as far back as I can remember, but you get the point.

Due to my upbringing, I was angry, had low confidence and my skinny build and glasses didn't exactly make me a hit with the ladies. I was dating what I thought was a nice Catholic girl at the time, but I told her years before we started dating that no matter what happened, I was joining the military after high school. She agreed to stand by me. ~2 years into my enlistment, it's almost time to deploy to the Middle East. I bought an engagement ring and decided that if she was still waiting for me after deployment, I would propose. Before I even left, she called me one day and told me that she had been with another man. Long story short, she admitted to sucking this dudes dick in his car in the high school parking lot. Now, you have to understand, I was a blue pill fucking pansy so I forgave her and decided to continue trying. Shortly after, I receive a call from a mutual friend. She says she's at a party watching my girlfriend make out with another dude on the couch. I call the girlfriend, she denies it repeatedly until she finally cracks. I dropped her like a bag of potatoes and go on deployment.

I come back from deployment and go on an absolute tear. I sold the engagement ring and bought a sports car. I frequently go home on leave, fucking every woman I could. I can't remember half of their names and my overall number has to be around 50. I fucked the girl who laughed in my face when I asked her to homecoming back in high school. I railed her on a couch in front of an entire fucking party. I had 3 different girls perform a blowjob contest on me and two friends at another party. I had a whole new persona- high confidence, don't give a fuck what you think kind of attitude. I wasn't the skinny, nerdy kid in high school anymore. I was muscular, lean and had money, which I had no problem flaunting at the time.

If you're still reading and think this is the life you want, I wouldn't recommend it. I was not MGTOW, my confidence was still connected to womens approval. I wasted years of money just getting my dick wet. I also stuck my dick in crazy more than a few times. Case in point- I get back to base after one of my typical trips home on leave where I fucked a few different girls over a week. One of them texts me- says she's pregnant, wants to know what I want to do. I've seen some shit, but I have never been so afraid in my life. I said it's her body, her choice, but I don't want to be a dad and recommend an abortion. She says okay, I'll get one. I said I can help pay, she says it's okay, my health insurance covers it. Wut? This bitch works part-time at fucking Subway. I wait until she tells me had the procedure, she feigns victim and I ghost her. She was shit-testing me to find out if I'd marry her if she "Accidentally" got pregnant, a typical strategy used on military guys due to their money and health/dental insurance.

I got out of the military and settled down. Got a small apartment, went to school, lived alone, kept to myself and saved money as hard as possible. Now I'm in a blue collar job that I love (99% men!) with no debt, 2 cars, 2 motorcycles, thousands in the bank and I'm looking at buying a house. I have never been happier in my life. I've been more or less living the MGTOW life for the last 3 years or so, but only recently discovered the movement of men who have made the same realizations I did- Women are nothing but trouble. They contribute nothing to your life of significance and take everything. They are all manipulators and deceivers. They will try to make you hate yourself. Don't buy into it. Go your own way, work towards your own goals and never let anyone guilt you for it.

Thank you to all of you here, you help keep me sane in an insane world.