I've been watching a great Netflix series "The 100" there is an older women as a main character "Abby". I've watched like 70 episodes so far but it didn't hit me until the sex scene with Abby. The idea of a women that old having sex as if she was some youthful woman turned me off. It actually disgusted me. Looking at her saggy body and wrinkly face mixed with the idea of her having sex was just nasty.

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Then I was watching porn and came across a "The perfect milf" video. It's some 50 year old woman with cellulite, saggy wrinkly skin, tan skin but some how her pussy was a completely different skin tone. Her pussy was all busted and darker than her whole body. Her armpits were also darker than the rest of her body for some reason. Yet the people in the comments except for one were glorifying her. I don't see at all what they though attractive about her in any way. Basically just killed the mood for me.

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It's today I've come to the conclusion of being single for life. Unless I'm allowed into heaven and we are all youthful I can't be bothered to marry.

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According to the bible marriage is sex and the mans duty is to love a women like the church. I can love a girl now but I'm not sure but almost certain that when she gets old I will be turned off. She may want sex but I wouldn't be interested in it because of her older body. So the whole love your women like the church till death do us part isn't something I can confidently vow to.

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So its no longer of believing and hoping of unicorns in this already brain washed society. Because even unicorns will get old. I can love a women for who she is but I cant completely love her like the church if she isn't physically attractive anymore. Sex is a huge part for me personally and I just couldn't do it. I could imagine her asking "do I look pretty" and me having to lie that she does. I just couldn't do it.

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Now I could easily smash a bunch of random women but I like classy submissive women which are already rare. The whole bar and slutty dressing women turn me off. The thought of how many dicks a slut had is just disgusting. Then theres the part of sex being marriage in the bible so I must abstain. Let alone the risks of all the diseases and false claims these days...

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For now the solution seems to be sex dolls for pleasure and girlfriends for company. I'm the kind of guy who likes to cuddle and chill on the beach. I could love a classy submissive girl when shes young as the church. But I'll stick with sex dolls as I can't commit to living her forever knowing she will get old and my love for her will not be the same.

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I still like women. Classy women who dress appropriately and know their place are very attractive of me and can have my time of the day. But the whole committed for life thing is not for me.