I've been coming here for almost a year now and to say this place has been a haven for me is an understatement.

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Long story short I was the "One blow job away from the plantation" guy.

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I came out of an 8 year relationship after my gf branch swung on me for a "Daddy trust fund" 24 yr old fat guy. WTF! I was devastated to say the least. I had no understanding of female nature then but luckily I found TRP. I swallowed it whole, for 3 months I worked out, became a cheeky rogue like I used to be and decided to enrol back at college (I was 31).

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It was a short course, (I won't say what in as I don't want to dox myself), however unknown to me at the time it was in an industry that heavily favours hiring females over males. One of the reasons I specifically chose the industry was its overwhelming majority of male workers. By this point I had had enough and just wanted to be around men.

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Anyways, college started and I made some friends with predominantly blue pilled cucks, but they were ok. I was getting out there being social, drinking and training. I said to one of the guys. "Mate, you've got to help me, whatever happens here, you've got to keep me away from women"

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It didn't happen. A cute nymph of a girl (26) jumped on me from the college. She hit me with freaky sex like you wouldn't believe. Yep, like the girl I had just been with of 8 years, this girl was BPD. Here it was, the "BJ bringin me back".

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I was sucked in, we partied, we drank, and most importantly we fucked. We fucked like rabbits, it felt great getting over my ex of 8 years. Things moved along after college we continued to see each other.

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This girl was probably a 7 - 8. She had so many red flags, but I ignored them, I convinced myself that I was just using her to get over my ex, that it didn't mean anything. I was still playing the asshole jock, and deep down, I guess I played it so well because I used to be it, until I was betafied in that 8 year relationship.

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I digress. As soon as it was time to get jobs after college, of course, being a pretty girl in a nerdy male orientated world she got hired immediately on one of the highest wages for the people who left college. I did not. I went to interviews where people were shouting "haven't we got enough pale male and stale around here?!?!?". Needless to say this continued for 6 months until I decided to go back into my old career for a bit.

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Then we decided to move in together her and I. Uh oh.

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I told myself it was a relationship of convenience and tbh I think it was. My savings were being rifled through as I continued to work and study, still trying to break into the new industry. Meanwhile she got bored at her work, hated it and looked to leave. She got offers left right and center. This girl wasn't even interested in the subject in the slightest and the company she eventually ended up working for had nothing to do with anything she liked, however, there were a lot of young people there who liked to party. Uh oh.

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The writing was on the wall, I knew where this relationship was heading. I tried and tried to break into the industry even working for free in an establishment for an absolute cunt. Needless to say after 6 months I could neither afford to work for him anymore, nor wanted to. I quit. I sank into a depression for 6 months , I continued to study, and ate into the rest of my savings whilst she began to go out and party more with her work "friends".

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She would continually go on holiday every few months to meet friends while I studied more and more, still not being able to land a job. She in the meantime got a raise despite putting little to no effort into her work. She would arrive late and leave early and spend all day talking.

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A year in the apartment passed by. So the lease was to be continued. I asked if she would like to consider moving to somewhere cheaper or perhaps living separately. Nope, she sent that lease right back without even saying she was going to. Shit. The landlord was then hounding me for my half of the agreement to be signed. I capitulated. idiot.

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Anyways, because the City we were living in was just a beta/white knight hell hole with hardly any women in I thought I might have greater luck applying for a position outside of it, near where my brother lives. I got it!

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I had to take it. And I did. This was 2 months ago. I said to the gf that I would be back one night a week and at weekends. Fine.

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Within two weeks I had a call from one of her colleagues informing me that my gf was banging some dude from their work. Sure enough I waited until the weekend to snoop. I got home before her on friday as she was out "partying". I opened up her comp and rifled through her work slack channel (how dumb can you be not to password secure it?).

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This convo had conversations going back a week or so. Her offering to have sex with him and his gf. Him sending her pics of him shirtless. Flirting, her inviting him back to our flat, him specifically asking her "So what are we going to talk about today are we going to talk more about your issues with your boyfriend" WTF, is this not the shadiest, creepiest shit from a desperate chump or what?!?!?!.

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Right I thought, I need to not explode keep a cool composure and deal with this as Im signed up to 6 more months of a lease. She came home, wanted sex, was telling me she loved me. I hate fucked her. Then I hate fucked her the next day on the Saturday. She said she couldn't believe how wet I made her WTF?!?!?!? I said babe I've booked us into a posh restaurant at the end of the month 2 michelin star to celebrate me getting a job (which I had done before knowing all about the cheating)!. "Oooh I can't wait! I'm so excited"

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Then I looked back at her slack channel over the weekend where she had sent to him "Oh, its so gay we don't get to be together at the weekends! ugh"

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Fucking bitch, she was still hugging me over that weekend. I felt physically sick how she could be so duplicitous. Telling me she loved me etc. Unfortunately I overdid it being too "nice" she said I seemed weird.

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During that week she found out that I knew, as she opened her comp and realised her slack was there and she put two and two together. She tried calling me to break up I guess. But I missed it and just went back down on the Friday, I said I would be there at 9 and I could meet with her, she said she was just going to be at home because she felt ill. I went back at 7, she was not there surprise, surprise. I blocked her on my phone. Came back the next day (I presume whilst she was at his place) and I moved all my stuff out to my bros.

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This is where I fucked up, and this is where I keep beating myself up. And this is what I need help with bros. I went back to the flat a few nights later to stay as I had to work in that City. I knew she had tickets for a band that night so thought she wasn't going to be there, and she wasn't, but then she came back at 2:30 in the morning and I completely "lost frame".

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I told her I would have had kids with her and that she was the one for me (Even though I actually hated being in that relationship, and I would never have had kids with her). I think I must have some attachment issue or something because all this beta shit came flooding out that I wish I had never said. It sort of inflated her ego and now she walks away thinking she has crushed me.

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How can I get over this? It would have been great just to go completely no contact and I regret saying that stuff to her so she got closure I guess. She said after "I'm glad we talked"

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FUCK

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Red Flags I ignored due to my sex crazed coma:

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- She was American and came over to the UK as people "didn't like her too much" in the states.

- She dropped ambien for breakfast and washed it down with a strong beer.

- She was an alpha widow of a multi millionaire, who dumped her and slept with all of her best friends.

- She used to take a lot of LSD and ectasy.

- She would gas light

- She would text her ex alpha

- She was great at sucking dick

- She was raped as a child and had to have surgery to fix her vajajay

- She had unnaturally dyed hair (white/silver)

- Within 6 hours of coming out for a drink with her I had my finger in her ass and was fucking her raw dog

- She had no hobbies, no interests and felt little sympathy for anyone or anything

- She loved cats

- She was incapable of affection

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TLDR;

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Slag cheated on me after two years with a guy who seems like a bit of a beta orbiter creep to me but whatever. Can't get over saying some dumb shit that I really didn't mean that inflated my exes ego.

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Edit: Guys, the point of the post is also to thank you. If it weren't for this sub then I probably wouldn't have taken the job out of the city. I would have continued to work in a shit job whilst part funding this ungrateful whores behaviour.