I honestly don’t know how I feel. I don’t intend to ever date anyone again, I’m going to go my own way for the rest of my life, I don’t need any baggage holding me back. I’m young and have every opportunity ahead of me, I haven’t even gotten to college yet. I guess I consider myself lucky to have gotten hit in the face with this wake up call this early in my life. The only reason I’m posting this is because I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be feeling. I guess I feel a hint of regret, a hint of what could have been, and thought she was a special person, or “the one.” Until, of course, she wanted a break. Not a full break up, in fact she said herself we’d still be together and she’d still consider me her boyfriend for the duration of the break, just not interacting and talking to each other. What do you know, she loses her virginity to Tyrone maybe three quarters into the break and expected me not to find out, one way or another. I leave her in the dust and here I am. I feel both a sense of freedom and a sense of loss and I’m looking for encouragement. I need a road map for where I should go next. I’m just finishing up high school with only a handful of weeks left in my last semester. I’ve made all A’s and B’s throughout middle school, been a straight A student in high school, and my long term goal is to become a computer engineer.