So I’m a nice guy, not bad looking, in good shape. I’ve never had trouble making friends or getting laid reasonably enough. I’ve been going through a dry spell, however. Was in a “LTR” with a dime who I loved very much and she dumped me a year ago before we got engaged and it pretty much straight destroyed my confidence.

I was gonna be celibate all year till I found out she fucked one of my friends, weeks after dumping me, a guy I was letting live with me no less.. anyway, supposedly she only did it because I was acting like I was moving on (I had committed to myself and to her to not move on, if mistake. I told her I was gonna give her a year to have fun and be young as she is 4 years younger).

So when I found this out (a few months after it happened) I beat the shit out of my friend while I was drunk and made myself look like a villain (we all have a lot of mutual friends, from work and parties). After that I dated this one girl who was def an 8-9 but was so depressing I dumped her after a moth. Then I fucked a sub 7 girl (not proud of this) then I did a bunch of drugs and went to a strip club and ended up having a sex party with like a lot of people..

In other words I’ve been pretty messed up all year long from this.

So my confidence has been gone.

I work two jobs in new town right now and my night job is at a bar with a ton of chicks. They all haven’t shown me any attention for the two weeks I’ve worked there UNTIL.. last night.

What happened?

I freaked the fuck out. Like Hulk status. Worked there for 10 hours and made $55. Got stiffed on like 75% of my tabs from Mexicans. Why do they like fight night so much?! Anyone all these dudes were pisssssinnnng me off. And I’m normally cool headed. I burst through the back and almost slammed it into this one girl, and punched the wall, and walked around like a psycho all night.

At the end of the night I caught the two hottest chicks there talking about me, and they’ve been ignoring me. This other girl talked to me and asked for my Snapchat. It’s a smaller town, like 30,000 people so they’re all tight nit. I just think it’s weird that everyone reacted positively to my hulking.

I was in not giving a fuck mode I guess that’s that it was