Short version: the girl I fuck is rape victim, maybe the reason she fuck with me, because she's a rape victim.

Long version:

Now I remember it.

Do you guys remember the guys who invented the philosophy of rape.

One of his philosophy is, "thanks to rapist, Stacy fuck with nice guy's."

I'm starting to think he is right.

Because, I get to fuck with this girl beyond my league, let's called her (Stacy A). The other guy's also might have chance with her because she once experience rape.

It's quite strange, why she willing to fuck with me. Now, it's make sense. By the way, this is a different women from the video I witnessed.

Maybe the reason I'm lashing out because it's remind me of her. Oh... Yup, it's the "what if" I can prevent Stacy A from being raped.

Maybe, I see the girl's in the video as Stacy A. Fuck, the girl you love getting fuck without her consent.

The story of Stacy A, she tell me, when she's was 14, she fell unconscious, at that time, she's having basketball practice,

the witness said, the boy's helping her to bring her to the "safer" place. When she started to woke, a bunch of boy's is around her, she's powerless against them.

She's simply can laughs, and she's doesn't know why she laughed. Physiologist said, it's a way for her to cope with the situation.

After going back home, she takes a few pen and thrust it inside her. It's a way for her to defend herself, it's a defence mechanism.

She's quit the basketball club. She's the hard working individual. She's has the talent.

Her situation was known, but it's was brushes off as misunderstanding. From 14 years old until 18 year old. She never quit the school, she study in the same school with them.

Girls accused her as slut and everything. But, she doesn't care. She's doesn't allow it to push her down.

She's no longer involved herself with them, and joined a new circle of friends.

Stacy A even tell me, she baked cookies for them, because they tell her, it's was her fault, and they tell her to go away, when she delivered the cookies and apologies to them for accuse them for rape.

She's doesn't know why she do that. She's feeling guilty, she said, maybe she's the wrong one.

I was confused, she is the victim. They rape her when she's was unconscious.

The school silence this case because it's underage cases and it's involved the basketball club. Her parents and other parents doesn't trust her. It's the word of one person Vs many.

But, maybe because of this, she's willing to do kink stuff with me. She okay with any stuff that can Degenerate her. As if she has low esteems.

Truth to be told, she's strong-willed person. At outside, she's always smiling and laughing. But, when she's with me. All her dark story come out.