So let me start by saying that I never thought I would crack in my MGTOW thinking. However That's exactly what happened.

I fell in love with this one woman (totally reverted my past mindset) I wanted everything with her American Dream and all that. Everyday I saw her I fell deeper into this pit of love and emotion... now I'm drowning in misery.

She didn't want a relationship and me being the person I am I tried pushing the envelope to change her mind. Not sure if I was making progress. I seen this woman and thought to myself I would be so happy with her Still do.

There was fight between me and her brother (not about her) I ended up choking his ass and pinned him down. Now I didn't want to hurt him and make it to where he couldn't breathe but he was screaming like a wild animal. I didn't know what he'd do if I let go but i did and he left me alone. That still kinda bothers me choking him it's like watching someone drain awful.

It's just i hope she doesn't fucking hate me. I can't help it brothers I love her. I want this woman so bad and I dont know why.

Tldr

I fell in love with this woman then choked her brother. I hope she dont hate me.

I wanted her so bad now I'll never have her how do I get over this?