Before anything, obvious throwaway.

I need to get this off my chest, I’ve been stuck in a cycle of pretty bad depression for the past year or so. My girlfriend is too. But I can’t help but feel like she’s not being genuine or really empathetic with me when I share my feelings or what’s on my mind. E.x: Me: “I feel like shit all the time, I have suicidal thoughts etc” Her: “Awww” or absolutely nothing substantial like hearts. Every time she’s like this I probe her with questions like “Have you taken your medication?” “What’s on your mind?” Etc etc. I can’t even really ask her questions or talk to her anymore about that stuff because it’s become a drag. I have nothing to say to her anymore about it really. Now to be frank, I’m an insecure guy, I don’t feel comfortable ever and I’m fidgety. My insecurity has worsened as a result of her I think, for at least a solid couple months she would constantly call me a loser for absolutely no reason, knowing full well about how I feel about myself. It’s now gone from loser to “little bitch” internally. She’s let that one slip outa few times. She always says it’s a joke and it always feels a little disingenuous when she talks to me about how this or that and how she has such terrible anxiety. I’m not sure what to do.

Sorry if this all sounds like rambling but I needed somewhere to get it off my chest in a place with guys who will most likely understand.