I have been lurking these red pill type subs for quite a while and really want to express my gratitude for what been shared on the red pill sub.
I’m here for advice on how the red pill can benefit and apply a sexually submissive man like myself and share my unique perspective on how it has actually benefited a man like me.

Before I continue just want to share this is purely a sexual thing that I willingly enjoy , have been this way since childhood(and had a good one) and that I detest any submissive behavior in men that results from them feeling deprived and manipulated while they gatekeep and dole out crumbs of attention.

I do not consider myself submissive in the sense of a man who actually wants to sexually dominate, yet lacks the courage to act upon it.

I have been through alot and also living in the south in a very partriarchal conservative environment, learned to value courage, self development, and sharpening your craft.

(Brother and I grew up catching snakes with our bare hands and living the country boy life, getting lost in the woods unattended, very adventurous childhood.)

Way more important than women is my priority as instrumentalist/vocalist, therapeutic massage therapist of 14 years, as well as writing.

A bit of background, had a good childhood, great male figures and father, and decent amount of experience with women. Yet ever since I was a small child I have pondered a woman on a throne, worshiping her like goddess, kissing her feet, being her pet ect.(absolutely no interest in pegging at all) (do have quite a foot/leg fetish, hand fetish actually)

As boy I always felt these were just random associations that I envisioned to relax before sleep. Then puberty hit and it became apparent this was a foundation for what turned me on. I don't actually need pussy like most guys. For me satisfaction is derived from the act of being dominated, erotic humiliation and being teased by a woman, putting her on a pedestal and just enjoying it in a meditative way. For me this is pussy and its just the way I am.

However THIS IS SEXUAL.

(And must admit spent almost all my life attempting to change my sexuality into something more chad like. From endless psychoanalysis, counseling, "manning up", self hynosis, trying to imagine being into just boobs and vaginas, you name it.) The way I am is what turns me on. When a woman accepts these qualities and I am attracted to her, then there is a turn on for the woman herself, yet the associations of submission/worship/legs/feet/control are still involved the dynamic.

Now I have had countless women try to use my sexuality as an excuse to turn me into all the various forms of beta male. They figure well if he likes domination, well then he'll give me money, buy me stuff, do me favors ect. To which I vanish. I have dabbled in the bdsm world and in life in general it literally digusts me when women expect that their sexual offerings are enough for a man to completely abandon his self actualization, hand over his resources, and chase her in a way that distracts him from his ultimate potential.

I have pursued esoteric teachings and have a mystical take on christian faith and practice contemplative prayer, qi gong as well. I have learned of place within a man where he is fully centered, and my priority in life is to master that centeredness and apply it to the creative potential within me.

I have begun lifting recently as well. You could say I look like the typical skinny rocker bohemian starting with the bar just get my form down before I actually utilize more weight. I also have generalized anxiety disorder and chronic fatigue. Yet I look at these as physical sensations and do my best to attach no emotion to them and continually utilize keto diet, detoxification, hydration, sleep hygeine and herbal medicine to be grounded and move beyond it.

So I am vastly different than most of you. Not even near a Chad, yet I am determined to own what I am and fully embrace the red pill into the way the "I am" in a way that works "for me". And I have found great value in all these posts regardless. And yes, my idea of getting pussy is vastly different from most of you.

I have met many women who dug me the way that I am, dominant women, or atleast women who grew into it and got hot for it because they liked me so much ect. Yet I have noticed that many regular submissive women will play dominant, try to manipulate me ect. And then there are fake dominants trying make money off thirsty sub guys as well, no integrity if you ask me. Its a mirror image of regular men getting played by manipulative women wanting to turn non kink men into betas ect.

The true dominant/switch type women (or just regular women who accept this about me)have surrendered their heart to me, and fully engage my sexually submissive nature while still respecting me as a man. Of course I wasn't ready to settle down and so I admit I was an ass who should have been more transparent with these women.

My take on Red Pill for me is to give all my attention to developing my potential as a man and sharing that potential with the world in a way that is uplifting and satisfying, all the while perfecting my ability to embrace centeredness.

I admiteddly have been through alot of what some of you have as well. I do find it necessary to continually educate and train myself to deepen my comprehension of these core concepts, and have caught myself just before going into beta modes in many instances. So I basically just wanted to share this.

I do not endorse submissive behavior from men towards women that results in them not achieving their most cherished outcomes. For me submissive behavior is my sex and I am very picky about when I share it, with whom, have standards to be met, and on top of all that it is not the most important thing in my life, just an aspect of who I am that I allow to integrate into my whole self.

The red pill has helped put things into perspective that empowers even "a guy like me". I have been sharing this perspective with other male subs in the bdsm scene. Yes some men fall into these things through porn and bull shit parenting and do exhibit beta stereotypes, but many of us are born this way and don’t desire to live the Beta life you would expect our sexuality to imply. Much Respect folks. Again any responses, tips, advice, and questions welcomed. Cheers.