I am 21, and currently living alone in the city where I am planning on finishing my engineering degree.

I was kinda bored after work one day and decided to download tinder. I goofed around on it for like a day. I downloaded bumble as well. In about a week I had like 8 matches in tinder and a similar number in bumble.

I had one "date" set up with a girl who just wanted friends really. I wasn't really looking for a hookup, but would not have said no. The day of this "date" came, and for whatever reason I had a realization. I was just going to be an emotional tampon for this girl. After that, I called off the date blocked her number and deleted all the dating apps.

I had heard about and am familiar with alot of redpill philosophy. I wasn't sure I bought all of it, but apparently I bought enough to keep myself from becoming an emotional tampon. I'm just going my own way from here forward.