So, I was just walking my daily commute through the subway station, listening to music, when this strange perception came on real strong. I look around at all these people and first I notice that I'm not checking out girls like I used to. They mostly all look like hardened bitches. I want to stay clear of them. Then I look at the dudes and they all look tired as fuck. Then, there's the couples, holding hands and shit. Like, what the fuck? I can't believe there was a time when that made me depressed, like I wanted in on that shit. Now I'm just like "Fuck that shit !" Been there. It's not what they advertised.

I have to walk through this store where there are like 2 dozen different perfume and cosmetic stands. Wall to wall burned out slags. Some jewelry store wher I can see some poor sucker looking at shackles with some woman.

I start to feel like I'm not part of this species anymore. Their mating rituals and strange bonding impulses don't register in my guts anymore. I feel like I don't belong among them now. Like a wild stallion walking among mules.

:)