Was on a trip to Budapest for this weekend. Thursday through Sunday.

  • Thursday ended just home drinking with my friend, no going out.

  • Friday. Hungover. Forced myself to go out at night, even though i felt like shit. Went alone to two bars. First bar met this 2 chicks. We hung out after moved to another bar together where they said they have to leave. So i stayed there and got into talking with 2 drunk cougars, which were probably high on coke and i didnt really enjoyed there company + hangover didnt really go away that much so i went back home. Night wasted.

  • Saturday, met up with my friends, we partied had fun but for some reason i didnt approach any girls that night since i was with group of 4 girls (all have boyfriends) and i became their girlfriend for the night * but we had fun. Got drunk again.

  • Sunday, slept in all day. Somewhere around 10pm forced myself to go out. Went to couple of bars - wasnt much going on. Finally entered a bar, the moment i entered, a dj (girl) and me made a very intense eye contact. I wasn't into drinking due to terrible hangover, so i sat by the bar listening to her set. By the end of it, while she was packing her bag, i approached her saying her set was very cool and i really enjoyed it and thanked her, on which she gave me a "you're welcome" which sounded a bit cold and "leave me alone"ish. I also didnt sound much confident when i said that.

I am very disappointed by myself. Obviously drinking is a huge enemy of yours when going out. I kjow that, but after couple of cocktails i am very social and fun, but i cant control it after.

Also, i am guessing my SMV is low. Due to becoming a court jester to those girls on Friday, as well as the situation with a Dj.

Any advice will be appreciated. I just feel very down right now. Thinking of getting myself a prostitute, which i am sure i wont enjoy and regret wasting money. Its 2am but most of the bars are empty mostly.