I'm 22 years old, I've been mgtow for 3 and a half years, I've never had a gf even though all the time I've went to a date (before becoming mgtow) I had my own thoughts about women beeing disloyal and other red pilled truths that i heard from elders, and read on internet (while still being Blue pilled) but at this current point in my life all that matters to me is to finish my career , find a new job (last one ended a month ago) , help my parents , go to have few beers with my friends , go skateboarding on weekends and all those things a normal young fella would do , except dating. Last time I tried to do so was 2 months ago with a chick I wanted to think was different ( while still knowing that AWALT but ignoring that fact on purpose) so it went to shit after a month because I didn't let her shit test me. I know fellas, that its a comprobable fact that awalt, but.. Why does my mind wants to "feel loved" , my parents already do, my friends as well, but there's that part that wants a goddamn "loving" hug from a girl sometimes , I know women are incapable of loving other than their own kids, but it really grinds my gears that even after doing a wisdom wank™ (several every now and then) to help aliviate the thought of some chick I could come across , it doesn't help in the bigger picture in this need of "love" what can I do to not feel this way? I already have hobbies, lots tbh, please give me some advice about how you deal with that feeling, and please don't tell me to "go dating" because I do not want to do that, there's no benefit for me knowing its just my turn,and that she would definitely going to be an awalt, I don't play that game, sorry for my bad English