Sorry for this being like ask mgtow. I'm very new to this community and I find myself agreeing with a lot of it. I'll keep it to the point.

Basically this is a relationship I had in my early 20s. Back then I think I was fairly strong on the dating market, I was fairly attractive, had a good social life, was fun to be around etc, had options with who to date. I eventually started dating someone who wasn't the most 'attractive' option available, she was still good looking but I could have done better. She was what I considered kind, treated people well, a fairly strictly raised girl. Anyway, she was actually very good to me, but after around 2 years the relationship fell apart, she wanted 'more' commitment, to live together, to spend all of our time together etc. I basically didn't. I was happy with how the relationship was seeing each other occasionally. Lead to fighting, more fighting, bitterness growing.

Anyway the whole time, one of her long term friends (she had known him for a decade before I met her) was basically this super 'worshipping' beta guy of her. The guy was rather unattractive looking, he was unemployed, didn't have much of a social life and I think was a forever alone type. He used to text her fairly creepy or inappropriate messages and I was never very happy with him being around tbh. He was more or less a creep. He seemed like the kind of person that could very well die a virgin.

Long story short, she broke off the relationship, which I kind of understood we were not well suited in what we wanted and got with this guy straight away. Which I must admit I was fairly shocked at, she could do far far better. She tried to keep in contact with me after, specifically texting me trying to be friends, I cut her out and moved on with my life.

Anyway, she stayed with that guy for a couple of years I think. I ran into her several years after and she was with someone else, this guy seemed desirable, was handsome, had a job, seemed a decent all around dude. Not sure how long they stayed together for.

But I ran into her about 6 months ago, and she was back again with the guy she got with after me! I couldn't believe it. I always felt somewhat guilty that she was with him, because I felt I sort of neglected the relationship and she ended up with that guy because of it and got comfortable. I'm still in shock she'd go back to him.