I have been reading about MGTOW for awhile now and have gone this route on and off.

I have struggled with girls all my life. I was raised by my parents and society (like most of us probably were) to get a girlfriend, have as much sex as possible, hopefully get married and have kids one day. I realized it is just how it is.

At first I really wanted to hit on girls, but realized that it wasn't my forte. So I decided to give up and go MGTOW. Then, that need for reassurance hit me and I started hitting on girls again. I felt as if something was wrong with me if I wasn't constantly getting action and validation from the opposite sex. So as part of that "need" for validation, I kept going after girls anyways.

Soon, I had this thought that I wasn't cut out to get a girlfriend and I should give up on women entirely. So I told myself, "forget about women. No need for them." But again, that "need" kept coming back. This went on for months and months until today.

A few hours ago I came across a MGTOW post titled "Today, I Gave Up the Red Pill (Subreddit)"

It was the most liberating thing I have ever read on this subreddit. While I was still seeking validation from women, I found The Red Pill, and the guys were suggesting that I look at Good Looking Loser's website. I did that on and off for a little over a year. I learned a lot about how women work and what they want. Also, how to become more attractive to them and get laid. I used it and I finally lost my virginity.

However, I learned that I was doing it to prove to myself that I could find a girl willing to sleep with me (due to my struggle with girls) but also just to see what sex was like out of curiosity. But once again, it was validation. After that one experience of having sex, I continued to struggle.

So I gave up again, returned to MGTOW and eventually went back to Good Looking Loser, as well as The Red Pill.

Today, I had this incredible breakthrough. I don't need any validation from women. I need to live my life for myself. If I constantly live my life seeking approval or trying to prove to myself that I am capable of attracting women, I'll never be happy.

Only I can bring myself happiness and it should never be through a woman's approval. That's lame. I will focus on my hobbies, things that I like to do and do my best to make a great living for myself.

This subreddit has helped me so much. I can't possibly explain how much good it has done for me, even though I went through some rough patches here and there. You guys are my heroes.

From this day forward, I promised myself to live my life for me, no one else. Thanks for everything guys!