Although the though is pretty suppressed now after reading mgtow posts hopefully it stays this way. Basically I have always wanted that dream girl who loves me to cuddle with at night and all that bullshit. After being black pilled severely I see the love of a women doesn’t exist. Like someone else said the emotion of love is only in males. And there’s a lot to risk with dating a girl and marriage and all that.

I’m a Godly person so going around fucking sluts isn’t something I want to do. However sex dolls do the trick without needing to lust after a real women as I would with regular masturbation.

I’m considering dropping out of college since I will never have a family of my own to support. I have two businesses and I’m basically financially set. My college semester ends in two weeks so I’ll have a couple months to decide what to do.

I’m thinking of getting an apartment but I’m not sure if that’s better than a small house. I like the idea of a big mansion but I really don’t need the extra space nor do I care for it much. What do you guys prefer an apartment or a small house?

I have such a loving heart and I’m wondering how to cope with it. I want something or someone to love aside from God and I want to feel loved aswell. Any ideas?

As far as replacing companionship of a women I have friends so I’m never lonely.

Also any ideas on cool things to do or paces to travel? I’ve got a couple businesses to start which will keep me busy for the next couple years. Perhaps I will consider adopting a bunch of kids then. Give them a life they otherwise wouldn’t have idk hmm